Words Have Actual Meaning

For the next year I'll be digging deep into this thing we call language.  

Attacking the beast from two sides - the known and the unknown.  

A situation that reminds me that what the Teddy Bear said is true, 

"Words have actual meaning."  

So when I say, "I'm leaving."

I am saying so much more then I ever knew, or ever intended.

Definition of LEAVE

transitive verb

1

a (1) : bequeath, devise <left a fortune to his son> (2) : to have remaining after one's death <leaves a widow and two children> b : to cause to remain as a trace or aftereffect <oil leaves a stain> <the wound left an ugly scar>

2

a : to cause or allow to be or remain in a specified condition <leave the door open> <his manner left me cold> b : to fail to include or take along <left the notes at home> <the movie leaves a lot out> c : to have as a remainder <4 from 7 leaves 3> d : to permit to be or remain subject to another's action or control <just leave everything to me> e : let f : to cause or allow to be or remain available <leave room for expansion> <left myself an out>

3

a : to go away from : depart <leave the room> b : desert, abandon <left his wife> c : to terminate association with : withdraw from <left school before graduation>

4

: to put, deposit, or deliver before or in the process of departing <I left a package for you> <leave a message>

and yet - if I were to say, "I'll stay"

it becomes even more complicated.

Definition of Stay

¹   <a href="http://dictionary.reference.com/audio.html/lunaWAV/S09/S0905300" target="_blank"><img src="http://sp.dictionary.com/dictstatic/g/d/speaker.gif" border="0" alt="stay pronunciation" /></a> /steɪ/ Show Spelled [stey] Show IPA ,verb, stayed or staid, stay·ing, noun

–verb (used without object)

1. to spend some time in a place, in a situation, with a person or group, etc.: He stayed in the army forten years.

2. to continue to be as specified, as to condition or state: to stay clean.

3. to hold out or endure, as in a contest or task (fol. by with  or at ): Please stay with the project as longas you can.

4. to keep up, as with a competitor (fol. by with ).

5. Poker . to continue in a hand by matching an ante, bet, or raise.

6. to stop or halt.

7. to pause or wait, as for a moment, before proceeding or continuing; linger or tarry.

8. Archaic . to cease or desist.

9. Archaic . to stand firm.

–verb (used with object)

10. to stop or halt.

11. to hold back, detain, or restrain, as from going further.

12. to suspend or delay (actions, proceedings, etc.).

13. to appease or satisfy temporarily the cravings of (the stomach, appetite, etc.).

14. to remain through or during (a period of time): We stayed two days in San Francisco.

15. to remain to the end of; remain beyond (usually fol. by out ).

16. Archaic . to await.

–noun

17. the act of stopping or being stopped.

18. a stop, halt, or pause; a standstill.

19. a sojourn or temporary residence: a week's stay in Miami.

20. Law . a stoppage or arrest of action; suspension of a judicial proceeding: The governor granted a stay of execution.

21. Informal . staying power; endurance.

—Idiom

22. stay the course, to persevere; endure to completion.

Sadly, after I'm done deliberating between "leave" and "stay"

after I carefully choose the meaning

after I craft my intent

after I say those words to you - to them - to us

each ear will redefine

each eye will see anew

because although words have actual meaning

it's a meaning that's relative to the heart that hears it

on the day it hears it

from whose lips it hears it

That is why I would prefer to keep it simple

and just stay here silently

sipping my coffee and loving you until I have to leave.